Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing

My dad once told me that I probably wouldn't find the importance of Trek till years later.  Today I was looking through all our trek pictures and listening to Pandora and the song Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing came on.  It moved me nearly to tears as I scanned through these pictures.  I was remembering all that happened so that I could go on trek, my initial feelings of loathing towards my parents for making me go, and the end result.  . It was then that I found the meaning of trek, and it wasn't what I expected. I suppose to every person who went there could be a large variety of different reasons, each profound in their own way.  To me trek showed me that I can do hard things, that I can make it through every challenge and trial in my life. I am sad to say that I did not walk the whole distance, and everyday since then I have regretted it, however on my 17th birthday I accomplished my biggest goal during trek, I made it up Rocky Ridge. I discovered something in doing so, I discovered that my trial is not Rocky Ridge, or even just walking across the plains, my trials are different but just as difficult to me as the trek was to those who made the trip so many years ago.

*picture credits go to Lauren Kasteler

its my Birf-day! (nope not my birthday)

Tonight I spent the night with some of my lovely co-workers.  We went to dinner and basically had a GNO. I loved every minute of it!  These girls were so sweet and took me out to dinner for my "birthday". It was so much fun. I am so lucky to know these amazing girls!  After many laughs and seeing a new side of Katie, to talking about Asian Persuasion and aliens with Jade (oh and a marvelous toast), to having anniversaries with Kenzi, and "swinging" with Cheryse we had a marvelous night!  Thank you girls so much! (I don't know why I am blue in this picture!)

62 Days

62 days of hiding my emotions
62 days of missing you
62 days of pretending
62 days of different
62 days since my daddy passed away
2 months.

Sometimes...

Sometimes people don't think before they speak
sometimes people don't know what they are talking about
sometimes life isn't fair
sometimes people confuse me
sometimes I don't brush my teeth
sometimes I make mistakes
sometimes skipping class is a good thing
sometimes getting dressed up is fun
sometimes I still love you
sometimes I wonder if people know
sometimes....

I Never Considered Myself to be a Pink Kinda Girl

I bought a dress.
Yes a dress.
And it is pink
and ruffled
and shiny
and flowy
and every other feminine adjective you could think of.
oh, did I forget to mention,
it is pink.
I ordered a custom made silk chiffon hand beaded evening gown to wear to sweethearts.  And I am so excited for it to come, only one problem.
The dance is on the 11 of February
my package is scheduled to be delivered "before the 12th".
I am kinda freaking out.
If it gets here in time then I will have the most gorgeous dress I could have ever imagined
if not...


I don't want to think about it.

I Won't Give Up On Us

I believe in Manicures.
I believe in overdressing.
I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick.
I believe in pink.
I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.
I believe in kissing, KISSING A LOT.
I believe in being strong when everything else seems tot be going wrong.
I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe tomorrow is another day.
I believe in us even when everyone else doesn't.
I believe in miracles.

Party Like its Two-Thousand And Twelve

Congrats! It is 2012 and if you are reading this happy new years to you.  Since this is my first official blog post for the new year, I thought it appropriate to look back on all that has happened in the past 365 days.

I started out by ringing in the new year with some great friends...

 then I.... (ps these are not in order)

went to school dances and had a blast

 went crazy with some friends and ate a lot of frozen yogurt

 went to my last year of EFY

trip of a lifetime to Alaska with my family  

 lost one of my best friends, my daddy, my guardian angel

 went to Junior Prom

became really good friends with lots of beautiful people

I had such a marvelous year through all the ups and downs the highs and the lows.  This year I rang in the new year with fireworks, the ball drop, and many new friends.  I never would have imagined this is where I would be in life.  I owe so much of who I am to my friends and family who have supported me this past year.  I am looking forward to a year of fresh starts and new beginnings.

2012

no regrets